LaMar's birthday is tomorrow and he's coming to see me because I still have a cold and didn't feel like traveling this weekend. I've got a nice afternoon of movies, walks in the community rose garden (not the one-trick-pony trick rose garden), art galleries and my fav-o-rite Italian restaurant.
On another note..... Othello is on a date tonight with someone that he likes and is nice to. I went to see Bee Movie tonight at the same theater O and his date were at. No big whoop - they didn't see me. I don't really care other than that last year when I lived with him, we drove by the Christmas lights in my new neighborhood almost every night.
It seems like there were more Christmas lights last year. It all seems so melancholy to be home alone... be living alone, boyfriend lives out of town..
You know, I don't want to be with Othello. I don't think there was ever the kind of emotional fulfillment that I feel now. But then why does it feel so funky when I'm sitting here in the dark, enjoying the holiday lights in the neighborhood?
Saturday, December 08, 2007
Thursday, November 29, 2007
Foul-Weather Friend, or, Happy Blog-o-versary!
I guess I'm just a bad blogger. I left Nelson 4 years ago and 1 week, today. Right before Thanksgiving.... I tried to stay. If you read the first two-three years of my blog, you would know that. Because I started my blog the very night that I left him.
Go ahead...read my first month-o-posts:
http://dorothyisnotinkansas.blogspot.com/2003_11_01_archive.html
In a nut-shell:
4 years.
1 ex husband.
2 ex boyfriends.
1 serious boyfriend.
5 places of residence.
1 car.
2 jobs.
483 posts.
Lots of rants. But I don't rant when I'm happy. So I haven't been posting. Sorry, fans!
Happy Blog-o-versary, Dorothy!
Love,
Dot.
Go ahead...read my first month-o-posts:
http://dorothyisnotinkansas.blogspot.com/2003_11_01_archive.html
In a nut-shell:
4 years.
1 ex husband.
2 ex boyfriends.
1 serious boyfriend.
5 places of residence.
1 car.
2 jobs.
483 posts.
Lots of rants. But I don't rant when I'm happy. So I haven't been posting. Sorry, fans!
Happy Blog-o-versary, Dorothy!
Love,
Dot.
Christmastime is Here
Go to iTunes. Go there right now. Get the Steve Vai rendition of the "Christmastime is Here" originally made fameous by the Peanuts' Christmas Special.
Also.... if you are hankering for a Dorothy-infused holiday.... get this Charlie Brown Christmas-Tree from Urban Outfitters:
Also.... if you are hankering for a Dorothy-infused holiday.... get this Charlie Brown Christmas-Tree from Urban Outfitters:
Tuesday, November 06, 2007
The Run-Down
I am happy, scared, sad, tired, stressed and LIVID. Here's the rundown:
Happy: LaMar and I continue to develop an emotionally stable and satisfying relationship. He comes here, I go there, we exist and coexist and it's gooooood.
Scared: LaMar's employment struggles are ending, but financial woes continue. A question: how do I know if this is a way of life for him, or just a short-term difficult period? My concern goes directly to the next question, which is: How would that word if there was a family involved?
Sad: I wish my family was here. It's awfully lonely in this state by myself.
Tired: School and work. I've been busy lately.
Stressed: School.
LIVID: Othello was dating this gal that is the former next-door neighbor of my friend Babs (I mentioned her frequently in my blog in 2006 - she was being treated for breast cancer at the time). Anyways, this gal, Emily, was sweet and nice, but a bit possessive (so I thought). Now after their break-up, it's a game of he said/she said that ended in Othello intimating that I, Dorothy wanted him back (that's why I'm around so much... no, not that I live two blocks from him or that we were friends or anything like that).
Something's wrong with that boy. He needs help.
One Last thing: I decided to spend two weeks with my family over the holidays. It was no fun spending it with Othello last year - I think that's when he decided he didn't love me (the minute after he asked me to have his babies "and everything that goes with it"...) So i'm going home. Jayleigh suggested that I take mom to her therapist and have a group session trying to work through some of the issues she has with LaMar. We'll see. I'll get to play music with my sister and snowboard with my brother. Yay!
Happy: LaMar and I continue to develop an emotionally stable and satisfying relationship. He comes here, I go there, we exist and coexist and it's gooooood.
Scared: LaMar's employment struggles are ending, but financial woes continue. A question: how do I know if this is a way of life for him, or just a short-term difficult period? My concern goes directly to the next question, which is: How would that word if there was a family involved?
Sad: I wish my family was here. It's awfully lonely in this state by myself.
Tired: School and work. I've been busy lately.
Stressed: School.
LIVID: Othello was dating this gal that is the former next-door neighbor of my friend Babs (I mentioned her frequently in my blog in 2006 - she was being treated for breast cancer at the time). Anyways, this gal, Emily, was sweet and nice, but a bit possessive (so I thought). Now after their break-up, it's a game of he said/she said that ended in Othello intimating that I, Dorothy wanted him back (that's why I'm around so much... no, not that I live two blocks from him or that we were friends or anything like that).
Something's wrong with that boy. He needs help.
One Last thing: I decided to spend two weeks with my family over the holidays. It was no fun spending it with Othello last year - I think that's when he decided he didn't love me (the minute after he asked me to have his babies "and everything that goes with it"...) So i'm going home. Jayleigh suggested that I take mom to her therapist and have a group session trying to work through some of the issues she has with LaMar. We'll see. I'll get to play music with my sister and snowboard with my brother. Yay!
Thursday, October 11, 2007
Lamar, Lumumba, Lambada, Lalala!
Lamar has an interview today. He is so excited to have a job again, that uses his talents. Unfortunately this one does not. But he'll be bringing in the bank. Which is just fine.
He and I have had a rough couple of days due to the busy-ness of our lives. I just want to collapse into his arms and allow my heart to soften up from my rough week.
My housewarming party is on Saturday. It'll be fun, but all of my friends, Romans and countrymen are expected to arrive! Will post pictures and other notes later.
He and I have had a rough couple of days due to the busy-ness of our lives. I just want to collapse into his arms and allow my heart to soften up from my rough week.
My housewarming party is on Saturday. It'll be fun, but all of my friends, Romans and countrymen are expected to arrive! Will post pictures and other notes later.
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