When we were about 8 or 9, me and Jay and JD (my older brother, whose name I use so infrequently in my blog, I can't even remember what I call him) liked to put things to the test. So when Mom used to say that Jesus would save us from anything as long as we uttered His name.... we were instantly thinking the same thing....
The plan was for one or more of us to jump down the stairs (12 steps) whilst yelling "Jesus"... because of course, Jesus would save us and we wouldn't get hurt. Yeah right. So no one wanted to go first. Man I was standing there on the landing at the top and it just looked...so...far...down.
So we went and found the black cat, Sammy, and while yelling "Jesus", we threw her down instead. Probably two or three times. She lived, so our experiment "worked" and "Jesus Saved".
Praise the Lord!
Thursday, January 18, 2007
Leave the Light On
Beth Hart is gritty and soulful and says exactly what I was feeling a few years back in her hit "Leave the Light On". Her line that says "I swore to God I'd never be what I've become"... man back in 2002 I was right there with her. Stuck in a crappy marriage and a hell-hole job.. Phew.
Yesterday I learned that one of my life's goals.. one of my biggest dreams was becoming true. The dream I had ever since I first learned about my field of meteorology... I said I was going to get a PhD one day and become a certified consultant. Well I'm in grad school. And consulting is right around the corner. But the lisence that one must obtain is pretty challenging. Man, I have most of the criteria met and it looks like things continue to fall into place.
As I continue getting to know Othello, he was literally shocked to know some of the things of my past - both good and bad. The certified consultant thing was probably one of the biggest ones as he thought I was just stagnating in my field, with nowhere else to go. Even though that is not true... it has been difficult for me since Nelson (my ex) always insisted that I would never ever be happy, never be content. Why did he say that?
Flux.
"I ain't that bad, I'm just messed up; I ain't that sad... but I'm sad enough". Who am I to judge myself for being a little sad sometimes? The entire world is at my door and yet Dorothy continues to focus on what she doesn't have. (a husband and tiny little happy babies).
Dude, now that is messed up.
Yesterday I learned that one of my life's goals.. one of my biggest dreams was becoming true. The dream I had ever since I first learned about my field of meteorology... I said I was going to get a PhD one day and become a certified consultant. Well I'm in grad school. And consulting is right around the corner. But the lisence that one must obtain is pretty challenging. Man, I have most of the criteria met and it looks like things continue to fall into place.
As I continue getting to know Othello, he was literally shocked to know some of the things of my past - both good and bad. The certified consultant thing was probably one of the biggest ones as he thought I was just stagnating in my field, with nowhere else to go. Even though that is not true... it has been difficult for me since Nelson (my ex) always insisted that I would never ever be happy, never be content. Why did he say that?
Flux.
"I ain't that bad, I'm just messed up; I ain't that sad... but I'm sad enough". Who am I to judge myself for being a little sad sometimes? The entire world is at my door and yet Dorothy continues to focus on what she doesn't have. (a husband and tiny little happy babies).
Dude, now that is messed up.
Friday, December 29, 2006
At What Price, Revenge?
I am reading about Saddam Hussein's impending hanging this morning. Certainly the Iraqi's have the right to be angry at the dictator. But don't take my words to be in support of the man.... just hear me out and think about this:
A leader in a mosque prayed today to "Have God take Revenge on Saddam". Revenge. But at what cost? The cost of a human life. We, the alleged humane ones, have taken the role of executing a man in the name of human rights. Where is the humanity in that? But I ask you: is torture better? Is brainwashing him better? Hard labor, scrubbing toilets? Locking him up in solitary confinement and piping religious commentary?
To be truthful, I don't know the answer. But I do know that this morning I read about the execution and became uncomfortable. It doesn't seem like we should let him go free... but at the same time, what right do we have to end someone, no matter what he did?
A leader in a mosque prayed today to "Have God take Revenge on Saddam". Revenge. But at what cost? The cost of a human life. We, the alleged humane ones, have taken the role of executing a man in the name of human rights. Where is the humanity in that? But I ask you: is torture better? Is brainwashing him better? Hard labor, scrubbing toilets? Locking him up in solitary confinement and piping religious commentary?
To be truthful, I don't know the answer. But I do know that this morning I read about the execution and became uncomfortable. It doesn't seem like we should let him go free... but at the same time, what right do we have to end someone, no matter what he did?
Thursday, December 28, 2006
Diamond Encrusted Dog Poop
Content deleted by author (because I frankly don't care).
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Speaking of that, I really admire my twin sister, Jayleigh for being so strong. She's such a great influence on others, and is really making a difference. I don't like how it feels like she's in such a great place and says things to me like "I'm sure glad I don't have to be single right now!"
In fact, why the hell would anyone make a comment like that? because it's fun. It's hard and I would have stayed with Nelson or M.W. if I really felt the way. I did not choose to be single. Why would someone choose to be single? I'm sure there are guys and even a few gals out there who don't want to be tied down. But by and large, as folks mature they want what is known as the typical "American Dream".
Othello and I want that together. We are so excited about it. And about leaving past disappointments behind us and moving into a bright and beautiful future.
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Speaking of that, I really admire my twin sister, Jayleigh for being so strong. She's such a great influence on others, and is really making a difference. I don't like how it feels like she's in such a great place and says things to me like "I'm sure glad I don't have to be single right now!"
In fact, why the hell would anyone make a comment like that? because it's fun. It's hard and I would have stayed with Nelson or M.W. if I really felt the way. I did not choose to be single. Why would someone choose to be single? I'm sure there are guys and even a few gals out there who don't want to be tied down. But by and large, as folks mature they want what is known as the typical "American Dream".
Othello and I want that together. We are so excited about it. And about leaving past disappointments behind us and moving into a bright and beautiful future.
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
Record-tying Post: a.k.a. a Bad '80s Film
Just because I noticed that my 140th post was the previous.... and that I had 141 last year... I thought I'd post a little brag and say "wow, now I've tied my record from last year"....
It's difficult sometimes, to post in a manner that does not offend friends, alienate those who think you're too narcissistic but read you anyways. I'll admit it: My posts are about as shallow as a bad '80s film.
It's difficult sometimes, to post in a manner that does not offend friends, alienate those who think you're too narcissistic but read you anyways. I'll admit it: My posts are about as shallow as a bad '80s film.
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