Happy New Year, or, Things I Sawr in San Francisco

On the street, on New Year's Day, a conversation between two couples of friends, upon a chance meeting:

Male 1: Hey Jamie, I'm surprised to see you!

Jamie: Oh? HELL-ooh! Jim, I like, TOT-ally forGOT you existed? Oh.MY.God.! OH! Yeaah... you emailed me? And I like, NEV-ver replied. Like wow. This is my friend SaraH?

A literal thousand dogs, all cute and cuddly, waiting for me to abscond with one or two of them to take home.... awwww.

Lots of vacant-eye'd people, folks with babies who don't pay them attention and then turn their attention from you when you make faces at the little poppetts and then they laugh with glee.

Everyone wearing a sleeveless, black "Northface (tm)" vest. Remind me to NEV-ver buy one? A-kay, Kim-BER? Cuz I'd, like TOT-ally HATE to look or sound like EVrey one else, a-KAY?

The lady in Gap didn't really appreciate me and LaMar laughing together in the fitting room whilst trying on jeans. Seriously! I was just, like, sitting there on the bench, right? And then Oh.My.GOD! You wouldn't be-LIEVE it? He tried on JEANS! LaMar, in Jeans? Sacrilege! And then, she like, TOT-ally gave us the look of death? when we walked out of the room, right? And then we were just like "a-Kay?", right? And she was like "whatEVer" and we were like "Fine" and then we walked away.

I'm sure she was hella jealous.... :-)

Happy Birthday Baby... or Damn...Those are some good Christmas lights!

LaMar's birthday is tomorrow and he's coming to see me because I still have a cold and didn't feel like traveling this weekend. I've got a nice afternoon of movies, walks in the community rose garden (not the one-trick-pony trick rose garden), art galleries and my fav-o-rite Italian restaurant.

On another note..... Othello is on a date tonight with someone that he likes and is nice to. I went to see Bee Movie tonight at the same theater O and his date were at. No big whoop - they didn't see me. I don't really care other than that last year when I lived with him, we drove by the Christmas lights in my new neighborhood almost every night.

It seems like there were more Christmas lights last year. It all seems so melancholy to be home alone... be living alone, boyfriend lives out of town..

You know, I don't want to be with Othello. I don't think there was ever the kind of emotional fulfillment that I feel now. But then why does it feel so funky when I'm sitting here in the dark, enjoying the holiday lights in the neighborhood?

Foul-Weather Friend, or, Happy Blog-o-versary!

I guess I'm just a bad blogger. I left Nelson 4 years ago and 1 week, today. Right before Thanksgiving.... I tried to stay. If you read the first two-three years of my blog, you would know that. Because I started my blog the very night that I left him.

Go ahead...read my first month-o-posts:
http://dorothyisnotinkansas.blogspot.com/2003_11_01_archive.html


In a nut-shell:
4 years.
1 ex husband.
2 ex boyfriends.
1 serious boyfriend.
5 places of residence.
1 car.
2 jobs.
483 posts.

Lots of rants. But I don't rant when I'm happy. So I haven't been posting. Sorry, fans!
Happy Blog-o-versary, Dorothy!


Love,
Dot.

Christmastime is Here

Go to iTunes. Go there right now. Get the Steve Vai rendition of the "Christmastime is Here" originally made fameous by the Peanuts' Christmas Special.

Also.... if you are hankering for a Dorothy-infused holiday.... get this Charlie Brown Christmas-Tree from Urban Outfitters:

The Run-Down

I am happy, scared, sad, tired, stressed and LIVID. Here's the rundown:

Happy: LaMar and I continue to develop an emotionally stable and satisfying relationship. He comes here, I go there, we exist and coexist and it's gooooood.

Scared: LaMar's employment struggles are ending, but financial woes continue. A question: how do I know if this is a way of life for him, or just a short-term difficult period? My concern goes directly to the next question, which is: How would that word if there was a family involved?

Sad: I wish my family was here. It's awfully lonely in this state by myself.

Tired: School and work. I've been busy lately.

Stressed: School.


LIVID: Othello was dating this gal that is the former next-door neighbor of my friend Babs (I mentioned her frequently in my blog in 2006 - she was being treated for breast cancer at the time). Anyways, this gal, Emily, was sweet and nice, but a bit possessive (so I thought). Now after their break-up, it's a game of he said/she said that ended in Othello intimating that I, Dorothy wanted him back (that's why I'm around so much... no, not that I live two blocks from him or that we were friends or anything like that).

Something's wrong with that boy. He needs help.


One Last thing: I decided to spend two weeks with my family over the holidays. It was no fun spending it with Othello last year - I think that's when he decided he didn't love me (the minute after he asked me to have his babies "and everything that goes with it"...) So i'm going home. Jayleigh suggested that I take mom to her therapist and have a group session trying to work through some of the issues she has with LaMar. We'll see. I'll get to play music with my sister and snowboard with my brother. Yay!