The Sad Little Birthday part II: A Sad Little Party

It was sushi. On a Monday night. With 5 women, two of whom he dated, two more who he wanted at one point or another, and one friend from h.s. who is about the most annoying woman on the planet (think: aggressive, self-important real estate agent). All of the guys canceled.

We had fun. I was the only one who knew any of them. These ladies had never actually met one another. Isn't that strange?

Anyhoo... Othello dropped in and we walked a couple of miles after returning home. Then ice cream. It made me sad because he was so great at making my birthday awesome last year (as I made his), even though there were bad problems in the relationship.

So by 10:00, he was all alone, at home. Lying in the bed that he made for himself.


Not that it needs to be spoken, but I was in my bed, all alone, as well.

Too Much Booze: A Visit With Friends

My Friends were in town from Oklahoma last week. From Friday to Friday (and sea to shining sea) we hit every bar, restaurant, winery and pub that we could get our hands on. Several of the days, I didn't want to go out... but still went...

It's part of that moving on thing... if I hadn't spent time with my friends, I'd have called Othello. oops.

On an interesting note, we went wine-tasting in Amador County, which is in the Sierra Foothills. It doesn't sound like a ton of fun, because it's not Napa, there are no restaurants, and there is no ocean nearby. But believe me... it's gorgeous and the wine was quite tasty.

Justin is a friend of my friend. He always tries to hit on me. He's quite inappropriate, but he's also a charmer and ...can't help but like the attention sometimes.

Woulda Shoulda Coulda

My White Night, Synoptic, just emailed. Poor guy just got dissed by a gal who was interested in him at first, and now doesn't give him the time of day.

I noted last year in this post, that Syno.ptic was someone who's always been there. I think I had a crush on him since we met back in 2000. Of course I never acted on this crush... never stopped thinking about it... but never ever said anything to make Synoptic think that I would be less than honorable toward him.

M.W. and I fought horribly about my visiting Synoptic a few summers back - apparently he saw what I would not admit - a deep care and concern for Synoptic that I've felt for few folks in my entire life.

So I consoled Synoptic about this gal who dissed him... He emailed back and said that if he didn't love his location and I didn't love mine so very much... "I daresay we would make a go of it". Thanks, I'll keep that in the back of my mind.

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Wait a second...isn't this the same man who was so rude to me on vacation last year? Um... yeah. He's gonna need to get a clue if he wants to woo me!

You're Still the One.... But...

Othello and I have spent a lot of time together. Even since the corporate reorganization of Us, he's a fixture in my life. But I can't shake this feeling of him still being my partner.

And he's not my partner... but ... eehh...

Pray for me to have the strength to follow my heart and follow the plan that the Lord has for me?

I'm Falling Into Best Friend Relief...

Othello and I run in somewhat the same social circles. Therefore, since I broke up with him, we have run into each other at the gym, on the bike trail, at his house when I went to pick up some stuff. He was in the middle of a project making some screens at my house, so came over last night to finish.

The truth is... we're both freaking relieved to be single again. Although a small part of me is hurting infinitely.... I know it is for the best, and wholly support finding someone that would actually be a good partner.

Othello is finicky, picky, dainty and not really my style anyways. But for what it's worth... I do love him. Just not in the way that you'd hope that you would love your lifelong partner.

-Dot.

P.S. (another haiku)

for what it is worth
sorry for the flux haiku ...
made my head hurt too!