Alone for Two Weeks!

Othello is in Japan, snowboarding. I am staying at his house, because my house is apparently in "Heroin Heights"... an up and coming neighborhood downtown :-(

You know, his house is no fun without him around. I was looking for a stapler in his desk last night and found some nasty note he had written about his exes. Not the mean kind of nasty either. My choices are to get really angry or to say "that was in the past". Either way.... it will look like I am being petty and like I was snooping if I mention it. Blah.

I've been thinking that it's a lot like when the folks would go away when I was younger. I could drink out of the milk carton, put my feet up on the couch, and not make my bed! With Othello out of the country, I've been walking around the living room without my slippers and not using coasters on the coffee table. Last night, horror of horrors, I did not wash the dishes. Now there are two bowls and four cups in the sink, unwashed! Unclean! OMG.

He will be home a week from this Friday. Not too long at all. Wonder if he even misses me? He was really edgy before he left and had I argued back... we would have fought. He grabbed my cell phone out of my hand in frustration. How does one react? Is that kind of outburst forgivable? We are not even married... Would I consider being in a long term relationship with another person who treats me like that?

My nerves are shot.