Cut...

So I was driving home this afternoon, and chatting with MW. It occured to me that I'm a fool getting all upset about whether he wants to be with me... If or why he hedges instead of opening up... and all of that. The point is, he's my soulmate, and I love him.

Cut
Sometimes it sucks because there is so much passion and the smallest words can cut my heart. Why oh why do I take everything literally? Honestly, it would be more profitable in life and in love, if I could be numb.

Keeping my poop in a group
I've never had to work as hard at school and at my life, as I am right now. Everything is hanging together by a thread. It's almost like when you're playing chess, and you know you're loosing... for a slight moment, there is an instinct to swipe the board with your arm, clearing all of the pieces.

Changes are for the better
As a young girl, my skin was notoriously thin. Everything made me cry, and "overreaction" was my middle name. Dorothy "Overreaction" Weathergirl was an odd little child. Never wanting to grow up, she went through an incredibly selfish period in her life.

That was followed by intense self-loathing, because she was already used to everyone telling her that her ideas were crap. She looked like crap. And as always.. had very few friends. Now? Aw, she's just trying to find her way in the world... Little guidance, but a big need for it.

It's all gonna be alright. It has to be. Right? Right?

Yeah... I hear ya.