Aaah-sooooo
Today I was offered an opportunity to relocate to, and live in Japan, permanently. In thinking it over, my thoughts went from "shuh" to "hmmm" to "ya know? I could do this" and back to "shuh" again, within 10 minutes. The point being, I wasn't afraid to ask questions and see if it would really be something that I could do. Almost everyone said "don't do it", except for Mister Wonderful.
"This is the story of a girl...
...who cried a river and drowned the whole world. Yeah she looked so good in photographs and I absolutely love her... when she smiles"
Tis that time again
Time for scheduling for classes. That begins this Thursday next. Today I was admonished by mother hen, to get my classes tentatively scheduled through graduation.
Me:"Hello? Um, yeah... I do not want to finish college here in the middle of nowhere...."
Hen:"Oh? Well you'd better get it in anyways 'just in case'."
Me: "Ummm. Okay."
Me:"Hi M.W., I'm worried because I have to turn in my class schedule, but I don't want to do that if I am not going to be here by next fall. My plan is to move out to the Land of Milk and Honey, with you.'
M.W.:"Hmm. You might have to stay there and go to school. Things are looking that way."
Me:"Nooooo! I want to be there with you! I want to try to be there!"
M.W.:"We can't try. All we can do is cross our fingers and toes and hope for the best."
Me:
It occurs to me that I keep hoping for a white knight on a trusty steed to allow me to live my future. Ha. But I don't need that. My heart broke enough in the past couple of years to know that no one needs save myself but me. No one will steer my future but me. And I'm steerin' baby.
Oh yes, I'm a-steerin'
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