Is there love out there? Some place happy for my heart to live? Tell me again... Why exactly am I wallering in sadness? There is enough sadness to go around without me adding to the mix. I am ready to be happy. I am ready to let go of the bad and get back to the good.
I am ready to go out and be a part of humanity again. I want to be sociable and know that the lines I've drawn in my mind are actually places where I will draw the limit. You know what? I want to have friends and things to do and places to go. I want to be comfortable socially, and not want to run away from situations that remind me of my ex.
One happy day, when the timing is right... I'll announce to the world that I have found Mr. Right. The guy who made my heart happy... who wanted me... wanted to be with me more than anything else in the world. The man whose sunshine heart makes my flowers bloom. The man whose tears of joy water my trees. The one who gives me the confidence that even I think I would make a great parent.
Many many years ago, I picked out names for my someday babies. And when I met Mr. Wrong... I became convinced that I would make an abysmal parent. You know... I'll make a great mommy. It goes back to what my counselor keeps saying... that if I don't like myself as a person... if I question myself... then it's time to take a peek at what my relationship is doing to me. I have confidence that I will not drop my babies... that I will not yell at them or lose my temper... And that I will buy them chemistry sets and have fun with them and teach them everything that I know.. and with Love and Patience and Encouragement.
Hey babies... Psst! Mommy loves you and can't wait to meet you!
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