Big Vision
Driving into the office this morning, I realized two things: a) I wholeheartedly agree with conservative talk-show host Glenn Beck's opinion of G.W.'s idea that we go back to the moon. Now I know I'm stirring up controversy by the very mention of the moon... but bear with me okay? And 2) most of the people I know suffer from lack of vision.

Mr. Beck talked about "Big Vision." The kind of visionary that was needed to put us on the moon the first time around. When President Kennedy said "... we'll put a man on the moon by the end of the decade", many didn't want to believe it would happen. Even as late at 1967, a popular poll showed that it was a 50-50 split on whether the moon-shot was a good idea. Now look at the public's opinion of Mr. Kennedy -- they loved him for his vision... his forward thinking that advanced us from where we were in the 50s and 60s, to the teflon-using, velcro shoe-wearing people that we are today! (grant me peace, I stole most of this argument from Mr. Beck... but I agree, so here's a throw-out for credit where credit is due)

He went on to mention that the "American Way" is not one of vision. We sit in our back rooms and our board rooms and say "arrrrgh! That can't be done."... when in actuality, it *can* and probably *should* be done.... Just too many people are WAY too lazy to get off their fat fannies and do it! It's been said to me before, that I make things look really easy. Let me be the first to tell you that I'm not lucky, and I'm not motivated either -- it's just that I can't exactly justify not moving forward in my life if I'm sitting in judgment of myself or others, refusing to do the work that I know will get me to where I want to be! So if I ever make something look easy to you, rest-assured that it's actually very difficult, and I'm putting forth the effort, mainly to avoid the appearance of hippocracy (and for those that don't use monosyllabic words, mj, that does not mean hippopotomus-like. It's means "Jo-Double"-esque).

While we're on the subject of going to the moon... I have to admit that I believe that Neil Armstrong actually did physically amble on the moon. Despite what my vallium-needing, draino eating (at least I think he should) colleague has to say. See... this dude actually believes that his own father helped to participate in the moon-non-moon cover-up. Possibly so... but I believe that the no-moon coverup was a... not a red herring... but a cover-up, like just in case the moon landing went horribly wrong, that public opinion wouldn't be so jaded that they did not try to do make the moon-journy once again.

You're wondering what this all has to do with my blog? Kiddies... come on! It's about why my soon-to-be-ex always tells me that he hopes I find what I'm looking for. It's the same reason that I seem to move every 2-3 years, and why I seem restless. Because whatever I've learned from where I am and what I'm doing right now... I'm done with.. and I'm quite ready to move on to the next part of this wonderful Plan that God has for me!

Currently I can see this next Phase lasting at least 3 years. I mean the part about going to Grad school. I have these moments of doubt... then I hear very positive things from people who are looking out for me, looking over me, standing on the sidelines and cheering. Then there are the moments which I believe that I have this impression of myself that is way too good, and that nobody really thinks I'm all that great.

FYI to all concerned parties:
There is a big difference between dating, and going out with friends. Most recently I have chosen the latter... and it's just nice to be out of my apartment sometimes.