The first week was filled with wedding festivities for my Aunt Laurel, who at the age of 44, was married for the first time. Then I helped Jayleigh with Vacation Bible School. One day at Bible School, the leader had a life-size prop of Jesus on the Cross, in the front, for everone to see. She then handed me a placard that said "SIN" on it... she hung it around my neck. To demonstrate how Jesus died for my sins, I was to take the placard off of my neck, and place it around the neck of our dying Jesus. It was almost too much to bear. I know she did it for the kids, but actively taking part in giving my sin to Jesus...
I didn't get why God would do that for us. The reasoning behind Grace and Mercy still elude me. Well it's because He loves us... but I don't get why He does. Not after the nasty things I pull from time to time. And I'm not even a bad egg.
Fearful of having an uncomfortable confrontation while I was home, going to Mackinac Island seemed a reasonable thing to do. I loved the thought of hanging out with Synoptic... perhaps gazing into eachother's eyes and ... no, no, I can't even say it. The second I no longer needed a man to save me... That was when I no longer looked at Synoptic like he could. He's a friend and that's it. (But you know in the hotel room, I kinda wanted him to kiss me. I just kept looking at him and the longer he stared at the ceiling and didn't profess his undying love, the more my respect and desire for him started to wane).
Upon returning Home to Mom and Dad's house, I was sad that I'd missed the weekend with them. See the following picture after dinner on Monday with dear Jayleigh:
3 comments:
great picture - you are two lovely flowers in God's garden. He is so good!
:) okay so which one is you and which is jayleigh?
ahaha
I am on the left, Dotty on the right. This is in our parents' front yard. Isn't the grass so pretty and green? Over Dotty's shoulder you can see the cold front passing over us. AWESOME!!!!
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