The Smitten Kitten...

Pilot is the best guy I've ever known. Like... in my Life. High moral standards, high level of integrity (on the level of my Papa Bear), and so. darn. funny. It's driving me nuts, waiting for him to ask me out. He is shy. He doesn't want to make a mistake. Pilot does not want to have any more heartaches. Neither does Dorothy.

Last night, I just decided that it would kill me if I went my whole life without going out with him, finding out if anything is there. Pilot is the guy. THE guy. No... no... I'm not in love. Not in lust. Not infatuated, even. But he checks all of the boxes: close to his family, hard working, nice, funny - oh so funny, passionate, caring, sensitive, deep, patient, kind, intelligent, driven, passionate - I repeat myself, chivalrous, strong, moral, ethical... and with a list like that... I'm not really concerned what he looks like! Although Pilot is cute and muscular, too.

And for a change... I'm almost paralyzed by telling how I feel. My Mom and Jayleigh keep telling me not to "screw it up"... not to date others if there's a chance with Pilot... not to be unkind or in any way, allow him to think that I'm not worth every second he spends with me. You know... they may be right...

You all know I've been on a lot of dates since M.W.... Like Choo-choo Charlie, who I was so infatuated by, for the longest time. When Pilot told me about his past heartaches a couple of nights ago, I wanted to share details about Charlie. The situation lended itself last night, and then Pilot said "You poor girl... you must have had a heartache so bad!"... Girls... wouldn't you offer yourself up to fall in love with a guy like that??

Okay let me repeat that I'm not any shade of in love or infatuation with Pilot. It's that beautiful, sweet, candy-like painful time where you're not sure... but you think it's entirely possible that you could fall in love again one day.

Yes yes... Dorothy is one Smitten Kitten. (yay God!)