Yah... so I'm morose this morning because I miss M.W. and realized that there is no one on the planet that I can talk to like him. Yes, if you must know... I'm trying to get on with my life, but I still love him.
And then he finally... after ALL THIS TIME tells me that the reason there was distance between, essentially THE reason he stopped participating in us, is that he could not trust me. Um... Know what?
No one gets to crab and crow about bad things in their relationship if they just "Go Along to Get Along". That's never the kind of think I thought we had going (I thought it was honesty). Now my trust is being called into question.
I freely admit that I made mistakes. But I was under the impression that forgiveness had been granted. M.W. IF YOU COULD NOT FORGIVE AND COULD NOT FORGET... WHY DID YOU NOT JUST BREAK UP WITH ME AND SPARE ME THE PAIN OF THINKING YOU PULLED AWAY BECAUSE YOU DIDN'T CARE?
I miss him. I want to move forward, and I still want to go back and make it work. I don't know what I want. (Dorothy fades away to quietly cry in the corner).
Sorry Pooky. I still love you.
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