Mulligan Life???

I've said it before and I'll say it again: "What did I ever do to deserve this goodness???"

Let's re-wind the clock by 6 years. A dear sweet man, my age yet, single, smart and the perfect amount of athlete/nerd, befriended me. A crush developed and my warped little mind somehow wrapped (quite inappropriately) around the idea that a "white knight" was going to save me from my rotten marriage.

When we first met, Synoptic was worried about me and told me that he didn't think I could make it out of my marriage in one piece. He said that he would wait for me anyways... even if it took the rest of his life, he would stand by me as a friend and supporter.

M. W. was so bitter over my long and tortured friendship with Synoptic. But in the 2 years that we dated, with an additional year of close friendship, I never pursued Synoptic. Sure, I made some suspect actions... I even told M.W. of my feelings toward the aforementioned German in a rare moment of complete truth (ladies, no matter what your guy says... don't tell him everything! It'll come back to haunt you!). And damn! Did I pay the price for that in the end. M.W. demanded that I cut off my friendship with Synoptic.

Okay... do I did. Kinda. M.W. forced me into a don't ask-don't tell situation where I couldn't even utter his name without wrath. He told me it was really irksome to him and made him question my judgment. Fine. Question me. M.W: I never ever even considered cheating on you. And you know what? You alleged that I was your soulmate but you never vowed to stand by me through thick and thin for my whole life!!!

So whether or not there is a relationship ready to kindle with Synoptic, a friendship ready to move ahead, or two best friends spending a weekend biking together....... I get to find out. We're going on a trip when I'm back in Michigan.

My heart has always loved his heart.... even though neither has ever spoken the truth of the soul. We're meeting and I'm feeling like I was just freed! And......

I JUST GOT A MULLIGAN.. LA LA LA LA LA LA LA .....!