Last night I kinda freaked out: M.W. has been a little different (the better kind) lately, and it freaked me out. Girls, you know what I mean -- everyone always says that if their s.o. is fooling around, that they noticed some changes before $h!7 hit the fan. His kisses seem sweeter, touches softer, and generally, all-around better.
And I was a jerk last night. After some tequila. (Does tequila do that to everyone? Either make them cuddly if with someone, or ready to fight -- or cry -- if they're alone?). He is like, the most popular person I know, and he's going out to dinner every night this week. And so I got jealous and asked him if he wanted someone else!!!! I am an idiot.
So why can't I trust?
Because of what I mentioned in the title. Essentially, I know how emotionally untrustworthy I had been before I met my ex-husband. And when things were going downhill with him, I had a number of emotional "things" (I hesitate to call them relationships, because these were not individuals I had ever met in life) with people.
Now that I am living my life 100% in the light of day... my suspicions run wild. A friend did that to me when she went legit, as well.
Let me apologize to M.W. for being a jerk. And let me say how pleased I am to be proud of my life, in front of everyone. It's a contant struggle to build up my self-esteem, knowing the place from whence I came.
But ain't we all just works in progress?
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Right on sis!
Peace out. I'm going to the car!
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