Emotional meltdowns are my "New Black"

Back in the day we used to make fun of fashionistas in the fall, saying "Pink is the new black" meaning, "universal". Like, "everyone's doing it"...

Emotions are running high for me lately. Damn PMS for amplifying my already rocky emotional state! I can't help that I'm jumping up and down, crying and screaming inside for attention.

True, I'm not acting like an adult... but who does, when they fear that their relationship is stagnating, or slowing down? Yeah, yeah... everyone is busy and everyone has tons of plans that don't revolve around me. I just wish that I felt like I mattered in the scheme of things.

Like everyone has houses and neighborhoods, and spouses and kids and families and plans and Plans.... and they don't want/feel the need to -- share. I think it's the "Cry of the 30 year-old Single Person". I'm not the only one who feels this way... either you're a couple or you're not. And if not, you're too old for the singles scene and too young for the retirement scene.

There's a chance that I'm overreacting (in fact, a big chance)... but I'm really tired of feeling like one part or another part of my life is on hold! First it was my job, now my job is in good standing and my personal life feels like the dusty water from last night on the night-table.

Bleh... Cottonmouth.

Merry Christmas, whether alone or part of a family or "family" or just pretending...

Dot.