At this point, I'm not sure if I hate her or myself more.
It all started years ago when I learned about spying on people on the internet. Google anyone's name, and you can find out tons about them. Now I've learned something I should not Google: my boyfriend's ex-wife.
I mean, it was simple enough. I know her name, I know she's getting married on Saturday. And I'm a snoop. Hey, public domain, eh? What's free can't hurt me right?
Well I'm here to tell you that it can. For one, she seemed to be the coldest and most heartless person on the planet. Guess everyone gets that way when they're not happy on the inside. So she gets a point. Next, she finds someone, settled down with him right away, seems like a match made in heaven, and she's marrying him. Another point. Well, half a point, because she's now going to be a grandparent. Hehehe. They travel, they still go to M.W.'s church, and act like no big deal.
So there she is, a point and a half ahead of me in this game, and I'm still feeling badly, even though I never did anything to warrant that. And I went off (again) about something I didn't have anything to do with, can't control, and... yes, I hate myself the most, because I looked.
Bad Dorothy :-(
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So call out to God. Pray this out loud:
Abba God (Daddy God), please let me craw up in your lap. Take away all of this stress and madness and in the name of my savior, Jesus Christ, I bind up all of the evil within me... all of the shame and embarassment, all of the horrible things that woman has done which are now eating me alive... and cast them to the pit, never to return to me.
Lord God I claim back all of the territory I've lost to the evil one when I am impatient, when I look out only for myself and when I don't ultimately trust YOU as the Lord of my life. I take back that territory of my life and proclaim it Yours alone.
In Jesus name, Amen
btw, my word verification was
cowxeap (cowheap? like cowpie?)
I had a joke - but them I read Jayleigh's prayer - and wanted to say I care (from afar) and not as much as your sis.
I get to listen to Jesus on the radio, at kfi640.com from 6 am to 9 am sundays. you can listen or call him, if it would help.
My word of the day: Peace
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