Right Or Wrong by George Strait
Right or wrong I'll always love you
Though your're gone I can't forget
Right or wrong I'll keep on dreaming
Still I wake with the same old regret
All along I knew I'd lose you
Though I prayed that you'd be true
In your heart please just remember
Right or wrong, I'm still in love with you.
What does that mean? It means I'm sorry for all of it...the good, the bad... everything. What a ride. Feelings? Yeashure.. but fading. And sad, mostly. Lots of regret. But I don't regret leaving. I don't regret filing. I do not regret that I am getting a divorce from him.
Any chance of a life we had together, he systematically destroyed in the 10 years we were married. His controlling, his refusal to use the common sense that God gave him... Get this: the other day, he told me that he gets his boss (a woman) to give him raises at the end of the year, by intimidating her, and making her cry! The horror!
At one time, I thought this behavior was agressive and even admirable. But bullying people to get your own way is not admirable. It's grossly misusing others to your own benefit.
So in fact, I am not in love with him.. but with the dreams we shared together. I am mourning the ending of something I so wholly believed in at one time, that I signed a legal document stating so. Now I am unsigning it, digengaging from it, and starting from scratch.
A better scratch than before, however.
Friday, July 16, 2004
Right or Wrong....
I filed today. With the county clerk's office. Everything will be final on July 26th. The song rolling thru my mind when I was signing everything?
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