Wow.... what was that???
Oh...erm... I think it was me getting on with my life. See, it's so difficult to ever imagine yourself coming to a screeching halt, jumping the tracks, and riding off into the sunset. Well I'm not in the sunset yet... but I am wearing a sun-hat and spf45 sunblock, well on my way to a glorious sunset.

Winter depresses me. I hate being stuck inside. But with that logic, I should be depressed by the summer, too. And I am. Fall and Spring are more my favorites, as it's possible to not have a day that is too hot, nor too cold, during the two seasons. We're anticipating a huge winter storm today, here in the Nation's midsection.

Talk about talking in Circles...
Ever feel bad for feeling bad about something? Feel even worse when you stop feeling bad about what you were feeling bad about? Let me make it simple: my spouse and I have not conversed since Monday. Last time we saw eachother, it was a week ago Monday. I am going to be out of town this coming Monday. Sure, I've had my moments of weekness... and those are the moments that I call my mom, my sweet friends, or my sister. I continue to fail to see what makes him proclaim his love from the roof-tops, when he hasn't even made an effort to talk some things out.

At the root of the problem is the truth that I no longer can handle being his happiness, his sadness, his right, his wrong. As individuals, we are bound by our humanity, to make life work for us. Some people get this all mixed up and think that they are working for Life. Nope. God has His plans and it's our choice to cooperate or not. Tis an awesome thing when what you wants is what He wants. Seems to some that your life is charmed (my typo was "lie" instead of life.... some people really have a lie instead)

Meet Virginia...or... Yes Virginia, there is a Santa Clause
I'm not proud: Train is my favourite band. But honestly! The lyrics to Meet Virginia seem to encompass what I was going through a few months back "she wants to be the queen, then she thinks about the scene... she wants to live her life and she thinks about her life... pulls her hair back and she screams 'I don't really wanna be the queen. I don't really wanna live this way'."