How Do I Make the Pain Stop?

I really miss M.W., but we didn't want the same things out of life. The thing I said to him when I broke up, was "Call me if you ever change your mind about us." That was Saturday night. The last thing we decided, was to be friends, call eachother, see one-another occasionally.

He is calling me as much as, or more often, than before. Funny that's all I wanted from him at the start of [the breakup] discussion. Why does it hurt so much to have him reach out, to have him open his heart to the pain, to be more sensitive? Because that's what I wanted!!!!! Now it's mine and I've broken up with him.

We decided to be friends, but with what boundaries? I can't let him comfort me, and I don't believe I have the strength to comfort him. We can't go on dates with our friends. Not yet, at least. My head is swimming with what I can only discribe as the pain of letting go. The longer it's drawn out, the longer it will hurt.

Heavenly Father,

I still do love M.W. Help me to resolve that with the fact that I had reasons to make the break. Give me strength and healing, because I can't do this on my own.

IJNIP, Amen.