All Dressed Up and No Place to Go

I understand... really I do. But that doesn't take away my disappointment.

We had plans to go out today, and they were changed. No big deal. The big deal is the wracking loneliness that I felt when I realized that the surprise was not that I get to see my boyfriend and his daughter... but that I would not.

So tell me... what do you do with yourself when you're all ready to party the afternoon away, and plans change? I do housework. The housework I'd planned on doing before they decided to come and see me today. But plans change and they ended up going home before they even got here. And I was all ready to enjoy an afternoon with them. And now I just can't stop from wanting to go to bed and pretend this day never happened.

A couple of half-hearted calls later, he couldn't convince me to drive all the way out there and I couldn't even convince him to meet me halfway. What does that say about us? It's not that I even wanted a kiss. Staring into his deep blue eyes are enough to make the hurt go away.

Not sure what I even expected for my day... but this turnout is no surprise. It just sucks that's all. I think I have a migrane. Maybe it's just that I haven't had coffee in a couple of days. No matter. Whatever happens... Monday is on its way, and my life can get back to "normal" a.k.a. "boring" again.

This is too much excitement for me.