With all of the crappy crap that is going on with work... I am losing faith in my own abiliites. In my whole life, I have never felt less competent and more impotent than I do right now.
This morning, the two bumbling idiots met with me. I was in CYA mode (cover your a$$, like do whatever it takes, bring up your shortcomings and spin them so you don't get into trouble), and mentioned a few issues that I was having with the work schedule. Frankly, there is too much work to do, during one hour... they said that I was not handling the situation, that it was my issues.
You know what?? I'm starting to believe them. I am tired of fighting and just want to leave. The other part of me angers me to the utmost, and I want to get even with them and really give them hell. I am not incompetant. I am not stupid, and I do not misunderstand the current situation, the very same one that I was told this morning, that I "need to work some more on"...
I'm surprised and disgusted at this situation, and I can't believe that I'm in it. I don't even have words for the feelings I'm having... but the purpose will be revealed to me. I have faith in that, even when I'm losing faith in me...
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I still believe in you.... with a love that will always be.... standing so strong and true.... baby I still believe in you.... (and me)
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