Let's talk about trust...

It seems to me that when you put your heart in someone else's hands, there needs to be a modicum of trust between the two of you. But trust is not something steady -- it follows the ebb and flow of happy and sad times in your life; it rises and falls, grows and receeds, as does the way that life itself wishes and washes and wears away with time.

There seems to be a bit of the flow, the fall, the low-tide in my world recently. Not that things are specifically bad... but we miss eachother. With that missing comes doubting that things will be okay in either the Land of OK or the Land of CA.

Missing U..

(I Ain't) Missing You

by John Waite

Every time I think of you,
I always catch my breath
And I'm still standing here,
and you're miles away
And I'm wonderin' why you left
And there's a storm that's raging
through my frozen heart tonight

I hear your name in certain circles,
and it always makes me smile
I spend my time thinkin' about you,
and it's almost driving me wild
And there's a heart that's breaking
down this long distance line tonight

I ain't missing you at all
since you've been gone away
I ain't missing you,
no matter what I might say

There's a message in the wire,
and I'm sending you this signal tonight
You don't know how desperate I've become
And it looks like I'm losing this fight
In your world I have no meaning,
though I'm trying hard to understand
And it's my heart that's breaking
down this long distance line tonight

I ain't missing you at all
Since you've been gone away
I ain't missing you,
No matter what my friends say
And there's a message that I'm sending out,
Like a telegraph to your soul
And if I can't bridge this distance,
Stop this heartbreak Overload

I ain't missing you,
I ain't missing you,
I can lie to Myself