Moving on.. but still mourning My Beloved.....

No matter how I move forward in my life.... my beloved Othello is always there. Last night I asked him why he still felt so close to me. We both decided that it's because we still feel like partners. That's messed up because we broke up and don't want to get back together. He thinks I require too much attention.

He said "We were sooooooo close. But I wasn't in love with you and couldn't give you what you needed from me".

And this is creating distance how? It just hit me again like a ton of bricks.

I'm having a ball with all of the gentlemen calling on me these days. El Guapo spent a good chunk of time with me in the late morning/early afternoon. In fact, there is quite a bit of chemistry between us. To the point where it was necessary for me to say that I couldn't be with him if there was not a distinct possibility of children in our future.

So the question for tomorrow's episode is this: Can Dorothy actually walk away from someone who she is starting to fall for, only because he doesn't think he wants children?

Okay.. keep me in your prayers, please?

Thanks.

Dot