You're Still the One.... But...

Othello and I have spent a lot of time together. Even since the corporate reorganization of Us, he's a fixture in my life. But I can't shake this feeling of him still being my partner.

And he's not my partner... but ... eehh...

Pray for me to have the strength to follow my heart and follow the plan that the Lord has for me?

Public Service Announcement: Heat Kills

I'm Falling Into Best Friend Relief...

Othello and I run in somewhat the same social circles. Therefore, since I broke up with him, we have run into each other at the gym, on the bike trail, at his house when I went to pick up some stuff. He was in the middle of a project making some screens at my house, so came over last night to finish.

The truth is... we're both freaking relieved to be single again. Although a small part of me is hurting infinitely.... I know it is for the best, and wholly support finding someone that would actually be a good partner.

Othello is finicky, picky, dainty and not really my style anyways. But for what it's worth... I do love him. Just not in the way that you'd hope that you would love your lifelong partner.

-Dot.

P.S. (another haiku)

for what it is worth
sorry for the flux haiku ...
made my head hurt too!

The Beginning and the End

Life is full of expected changes, unexpected changes, and outright surprises.

I broke up with Othello this week. We loved one another so deeply. Sat right on the couch and cried together, because we now know it will never work - he is not what you would call "In Love" with me. I do not want to live my life like that. 'Nuff said.

How to be friends with this one? He is literally my best friend. He tells me that no one knows him as I do.

Pray for these things:

1. healing for both of us
2. a charming, wonderful man to drop into my life when I least expect it
   (like, any time now)
3. This may be a time of peace in our lives.
   

'Dat girl's got swagger!

In speaking with my counselor over the last several sessions... I AM the strong woman that I admire... The knowledge and drive is there and ... can actually get all of the stuff done, that I dream of.

So what's the dealio? Why can't this Dorothy-gal see that? Oh wait... because she is ever-self-critical. Her supporters all say she's da-bomb. But she refuses to see it.

You might be wondering at this point... "What did Dot do, that was so awesome?" I did something this week. I did it and I wasn't afraid! I, Dorothy Gale told Othello what is needed for the relationship to reach the next level.... I told him and didn't back down. Frankly this girl's getting restless and bored. If there is no future with O, I'd rather move on.

The problem? He's my best friend and I don't want to move on. So the only solution was to tell him how I felt and ask if it was time to give up. He said "hang in there for me".... and "keep your faith" and such.

Confidence and strength, po-tweet, that's swagger!