It symbolizes Friendship, Love and Loyalty (Hands, Heart and Crown). Those are the key things which my relationship with Othello is based around. It is so important, and although there've been so many mistakes in the past... I simply won't blow this one.
Last week it was a shock when O freaked out when his former girlfriend logged on IM (while I was on the computer) and he logged out so quick my head was spinning. How suspicious! Then this past weekend, she called his house. When asked who it was... he lied to me. He fessed up 1 minute later... but it was already too late. Broken trust by someone whose first instinct is to lie to me.
With all of the other problems in life... why lie? I learned early not to lie. It is far more preferable to take the consequences as they come, than to lie to save your own a$$, then worry until the end of time, about the outcome.
Anyways, it turned out that I won't stand for liars and especially for emotionally straying boyfriends who don't see anything wrong with carrying on with their old emotionally unstable girlfriends because they "need emotional support". So I stood up for myself and women everywhere and kindly asked him to cease and desist contact with her. Then we argued about it for two whole days. He's a stubborn, stubborn man.
There is no resolution yet, except that he said I was forcing his hand... whatever that meant. He forced me to cease contact with someone who'd been a good friend back in the day. Oh well.
So it comes down to "is it worth a fight?". My thought is "no". Love the guy, he's with me now, why do I worry?
Peace.
Dot.
1 comment:
the last advice you gave yourself was sound. relax, enjoy, be yourself, at peace.
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